That cottage of darkness

That cottage of darkness

Photo by Ron Whitaker on Unsplash

Originally published 7 May 2006

In many ways my moth­er’s funer­al was a joy­ous occa­sion — a time to cel­e­brate her life, to cel­e­brate fam­i­ly. A time, too, to think about death. She was the last of her gen­er­a­tion, and died in hope of heav­en. I am the old­est of the next gen­er­a­tion, agnos­tics most­ly. That puts me on the lead­ing edge — of oblivion.

Well, let’s not get mor­bid. With a lit­tle luck, my twi­light years will be gold­en, and every one of those years is a gift of sci­ence. I am past the age of my father’s death, and well past the age that my grand­fa­thers died.

A cen­tu­ry ago, the aver­age male life­time in the Unit­ed States was 45 years. Today it’s in the 70s — and ris­ing. Nev­er before in his­to­ry have so many of us had the expec­ta­tion of a ripe old age.

The aver­age life­time won’t rise for­ev­er, of course, at least not with­out some genet­ic jig­ger­ing. There are bio­log­i­cal clocks tick­ing in every cell of our bod­ies. Our cells are fat­ed one-by-one to die, each at its appoint­ed time, until final­ly the entire colony expires.

For mul­ti-celled crea­tures like our­selves, death is not the oppo­site of life; death is part of life.

Sin­gle-celled organ­isms are poten­tial­ly immor­tal. With an appro­pri­ate envi­ron­ment and nutri­ents, bac­te­ria can live for­ev­er, Hayflick notwith­stand­ing. Genet­i­cal­ly pro­grammed, inevitable death appeared rather late in the his­to­ry of life, just 600 mil­lion years ago, at the same time as sex and mul­ti­cel­lu­lar­i­ty. In recent decades sci­en­tists have begun to under­stand that if you want to have crea­tures with eyes and ears, brains and back­bones, gonads and gods, then you got­ta have death, too.

Writ­ing sev­er­al years ago in the jour­nal Nature, biol­o­gist Ger­ry Meli­no not­ed that an indi­vid­ual cell in a mul­ti­cel­lu­lar organ­ism can do one of three things — divide, spe­cial­ize, or com­mit sui­cide. If divi­sion and spe­cial­iza­tion occurred with­out cell sui­cide, an 80-year-old per­son would have 2 tons of bone mar­row and a gut 16 kilo­me­ters, or 10 miles, long, said Melino.

The whole busi­ness of build­ing and main­tain­ing a mul­ti­celled organ­ism is a genet­i­cal­ly orches­trat­ed dance of cell divi­sion and cell death. For exam­ple, as a human embryo devel­ops, the extrem­i­ties of the limbs first look like stumpy ping-pong pad­dles. Then cells start to selec­tive­ly die in a way that turns the pad­dles into hands and feet with dig­its. We have fin­gers and toes because cer­tain cells were pro­grammed for sui­cide. The Grim Reaper has an alter­nate role as a Michelan­ge­lo who releas­es the stat­ue’s form from with­in the block of marble.

Soon­er or lat­er, how­ev­er, in mul­ti-celled crea­tures, the reap­ing runs ahead of the shap­ing and we expe­ri­ence senes­cence, the phys­i­cal decline of old age. Sci­en­tists are not sure how or why senes­cence evolved, but humans are the only crea­tures for which it makes much dif­fer­ence. For oth­er ani­mals and plants (includ­ing our­selves until recent­ly), death by acci­dent or vio­lence was a more like­ly fate than dod­der­ing old age. If evo­lu­tion nev­er select­ed against senes­cence, it may be because it nev­er had a chance to do so.

But I live in a civ­i­liza­tion that has invent­ed antibi­otics and child­proof caps, vac­ci­na­tions and seat belts, ster­ile par­tu­ri­tion and the ABM Treaty. It is pos­si­ble that I will col­lect my Social Secu­ri­ty check for anoth­er 10 or 20 years. This is a huge new thing in the his­to­ry of life: Not nature red in tooth and claw, but Cen­trum Sil­ver and senior aerobics.

For most of the his­to­ry of our race, death came as a bolt from the blue — a snake bite, an impact­ed tooth, a bash on the head by the war­rior next door, star­va­tion. There was an appar­ent arbi­trari­ness to the cir­cum­stances, and our ances­tors were quick to invoke the inter­ven­tion of gods or malev­o­lent spir­its, and to imag­ine that the inter­rup­tion of life was only tem­po­rary. The idea of per­son­al immor­tal­i­ty may have been a response to the iffi­ness of life.

Now, with the ben­e­fit of med­ical sci­ence and the order­ly assis­tance of civ­i­lized soci­ety, we live long enough to see that mor­tal­i­ty is a nec­es­sary part of the plan, a corol­lary of life that is built into every cell of our bod­ies. This is all rather too new for us to have yet assim­i­lat­ed the idea. By and large, our cul­tur­al and reli­gious respons­es to death are the prod­ucts of a time when only the lucky sur­vivor expe­ri­enced senes­cence — when the Grim Reaper with his glis­ten­ing scythe was a more con­tin­u­ous pres­ence in our lives than the Michelan­ge­lo with his art­ful chisel.

Only a few thought­ful philoso­phers and sci­en­tists have been brave enough to absorb the lessons of genet­i­cal­ly pro­grammed cell death. Per­son­al mor­tal­i­ty is the price we pay to exist at all as unique, com­plex, mul­ti-celled, sex­u­al­ly active, thought­ful individuals.

Death is life’s nec­es­sary part­ner, end­less­ly creative.

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